Holidays. Seems like a natural thing to write about three days after Christmas. I am not much into holidays anymore. Perhaps I will get that groove back, but about eight years ago Christmas literally blew up in my aunt's living room and I have had holidays without tradition since. Even though the tradition I had prior to that blow up was insane ... it was an insanity I understood.
Now I have converted to Judaism. To top it all off, I live in California -- talk about a holiday season buzzkill -- Los Angeles is not really a holiday kind of town. It has nothing to do with being Jewish -- my hudband is Jewish and he wishes we had a tree, despite the fact that rabbi's frown on that sort of thing, especially if you are going to raise a family. So don't tell -- I have too many Christmas ornaments to give up the tree ... what am I to do with my Troy Aikman and Ladanian Tomlinson ornaments? (The Chargers just trounced the Broncos and made it into the playoffs, by the way. I love football.)
I was never all that religious, so it seemed like the best thing to do for our future children. Do I feel Jewish? No. Not like people who just are Jewish, feel Jewish. They may not know one prayer -- but they inherently have that Jewish way about them.
When you convert you have to practice until you feel Jewish. I don't practice because I have not found a temple I really connect with and my husband does not practice because he has never been the temple going sort. I am in search of a new temple for us in 2009.
I have not thought about New Year's resolutions yet ... but that seems like a reasonable one. Two things that WILL NOT be on that list: losing weight and exercising more. I want to do those things, but there has to be a better way than a "resolution". Saddam Hussein defied the United Nations every time they made one ..
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